25岁的我们谈人生, 人生是什么样的?

其实它可以是很美好的， 也可以是很残酷的.

看你怎么去对待它接受它.

 

最近看到一个老朋友的blog, 言语之中不难看出她对人生或者对过去的种种有很多的感伤.

我并不知道在她的生活里发生了什么, 我只知道, 一段美好的回忆对于一个女人来说很重要.

如果要因为种种原因舍弃过去,只求留下温暖的回忆.

一个人的冬天,可以用来取暖...

 

我没有问老友, 也许有的时候不问, 才是真切的感受到她的难过...我不知道

曾经以为很美好的东西, 还是有一天会离开, 或者变质

可是谁知道, 那曾经的美好在曾经是那么的真实, 触手可及, 没有人知道它会变

 

变和不变, 其实只是那一瞬间的念头

难得的是, 在失去过去种种之后, 你觉得你还是没变, 你还是可以接受改变了的人和事, 淡然处之.

不要觉得自己是失败的人, 能站起来的人, 永远不会是失败者.

 

生命依然要继续, 有一天, 你会看见永远.

 

今天是美国的感恩节, 很多FFXI的朋友都有一个Long weekend.

 

加拿大的感恩节和美国的感恩节不是同一天, 甚至不是同一个月, 节日的主题基本上是一样的, 就是大家聚在一起, 吃火鸡....(本人并不是很喜欢...)

 

以前在加的时候, 一有long weekend, 我们就会特别的开心, 然后plan做什么去哪里玩, 虽然加拿大不比上海, 那里是一个极度Boring却又很peaceful的地方.

 

所以可能比较适合慢性子的人居住, 养老也不错.

 

这几天上海阴雨连绵, 从老家回来之后, 天就没有晴过, When is the sunny day?

 

朋友们也在各自忙碌着, 给林林去了个电话, 他最近也很忙, 希望他一切都顺利, 小偷骗子远离!!Take care plz :)

 

Orlando说也许会考虑尝试着在上海找份工作, 可是没有中文能力, 不知道可不可以...听说他过了US Natrualization的面试, 就等通知什么时候Take Oath了.

 

听说是这一两个月之内, 也祝愿他早日通过.

 

Happy Thanksgiving, my friends.

 

 

Today I did not feel good in the PT we had.

 

I snuck onto FFXI today to party as Bard and Ranger with Sanoken. We started at both lv. 58 and soon I got a PT invite,

 

by a 58 monk,  Firstly I saw that we had the Paladin 60, I knew that the Xp won't be so great when Pting, I don't mind to have PLD tanking

 

at this level, but Its better if we can all keep our level closer, we ended up have to fight IT++ con to us, which is VT con to the pld.

 

My songs got ressisted a lot during the fights, I dont have uber equipments but mine was above average.

 

We had this BLM taru, who got me really upset at the first, we went to Cape Terrigan first, the xp was like 90-130 for us.

 

BLM's first spell was Burst when crab was @ 70% HP. He then tried to melee with a scythe,

 

I suggested him to stay back so I can refresh him with Ballads.

 

Yes, he did get me a little angry on that since he was not listening to me at all.

 

We then decided to move to Valleys of Sorrow North entrance, had to Sneak/Invisible all the way up...

 

 sadly the BLM taru died 3x on the way, since he casts Sneak right beside 2 raptors...and when he recast

 

sneak, he does not take the previous sneak off. (He doesn't know he has to do that).

 

That took us like 40mins to move....which should take us 5... at the end, we still got to camp, after Sano went to get the taru.

 

He was too embarassed to speak up but he started to listen.

 

and We were doing ok in Valleys of sorrow for like 15mins. At least Im glad this blm taru would stun when PLD gets low on HP or gets

 

interrupted... MB wasn't really a big issue. Suddenly, our Leader disbanded him, and invited a BLU who just arrived @ camp,

 

 then said "Goodbye, Noob black mage" in Say...

 

I was kind of shocked... hes one of the very few taru that really got me upset for a bit, but I dont think he deserve that...

 

He should at least be treated like everyone, if you dont want him, at least you should tell him first... but not just kick w/o warning...

 

The taru was resting, and didn't say anything... I feel bad, horrible... I don't know why...but I feel its kind of mean who did that....

 

Taru stood up and warped... and started seeking again..but I dont think he got a Party later today...

 

No one said anything to taru, he must think we everyone is laughing at him and did this on purpose to him...

 

I can understand people would get impatient by new players...but like I said, at least you gotta say something first if you gotta do

 

something... moreover, you shouldn't embarass the taru even more by saying something mean...

 

Welllll.... I wish i was brave enough to do something or say something... I guess I wasn't...

 

Party lasted for about 2hrs, and a lot of AFK ocurred during that 2hrs...

 

Normally I would get 1 lvl each day but too bad today I didn't. It Ended when I was 3.8k tnl.

 

Oh well, Im kind of glad the PT ended, I wasn't enjoying it at all.

 

Its about that... A sad taru makes me a sad day. Hope not everyone would be like that....

 

You gotta love Tarus, if you got a loving heart.

 

 

 

Playstation 3 is out.... well in both Japan and North America.

 

So is Wii from Nintendo.

 

I've been expecting them for quite a long time, but the price is kind of high since it just released like every other products.

 

As I've known that this PS3 got 2 versions : one is 20GB and another is 60GB.

 

The 60GB one has silver lining around the surface of PS3 box

 

Im more intrested in its Controller, not sure if they still come with PS2 version of controller or already the new slim style...

 

It sales for $659 CAD+ Tax... O_O; /shocked...

 

Maybe not that shocked, I remember that I bought PS2 for $799CAD back in 2000. Got so excited then brought that to Pacific mall in

 

Toronto, paid another $200CAD to get the chip changed so that I can play copy version of those old PS2 games... Im cheap haha...

 

Hmm when I flew back from London, Ontario to Shanghai, I got 4 big suitcases with me alone... I was weak...to carry them yet, I still wanted

 

bring my 18''LCD screen and my lovely PS2 with me... They survived...

 

I remember when I got one, 1 suitcase was reported missing... and miracly...1 month later, airport guy said found it! wow, what a good

 

news to me... and my PS2 finally came back to me.

 

I miss my Gamecube too, too bad that I had to give it to one of my best friend when I left Canada, I was not superwoman, couldn't carry

 

more than I can... and those my fav. mario games...sometimes if too stressed, Mario Party always brings me joy...

 

I know I might be silly and childish about that...

 

I can't afford PS3 and Wii at the moment, but Someday soon, I know that I will try to get them. Not so intrested in Xbox360, not sure why,

 

Microsoft's game system never really excites me much...perhaps thats just me.

 

Wishing list:

 

PS3

FFXII

Wii

My old gamecube... and ALL mario games...

 

haha... way to go...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life in hometown is pretty simple.

 

Nothing much to do at all, sometimes feeling lonely and bored.

 

Lucky theres FFXI and some TV drama to company me.

 

I've been ok, and how about everyone else? Doing good?

 

My aunt is sick, and mom has to take care of her, she wants to stay for a little big longer,

 

I think the latest time I go back to Shanghai will be changed to the 16th, Middle of this month.

 

Mom said we came back here on the 16th of last month, so might as well go back on the same date too.

 

I hope that everything goes ok.

 

Winters here that I can feel it, getting colder and colder everyday but like it was in Canada, I know I wont be able to see snow here...

 

I am kind of missing it, yeah I am...

 

or maybe missing the peaceful feeling...

 

Winter is the season that I crave for peace and comfort so much, I think not just me...

 

Wishing everyone good luck, see ya all my friends when I go back.

 

P.S. thanks orlando :) I wont feel so down sometimes, I won't give up on things I've been working on. and will continue once I get back.

       also wish peter good healthy and best luck on what hes been busy working on :).

     

 

 

As of today,

 

I am still @ hometown. Living in Grandpa's home.

 

I don't know what made me suddenly realize, that I do want to quit whatever type of life I am in right now.

 

Living comfortably physically, not having to worry about anything is not equal to happiness...

 

I want another life.

 

Im not happy.

 

No one believes,

 

No one knows,

 

Its not important to you or to anyone,

 

Forget it...

 

Forget it...

 

I hope that I go to sleep and never wake up in the morning... hehe

 

This world is so very cold...

 

at least its what surrounds me... now

 

all the time...